“Our lives are the only meaningful expression of what we believe and in Whom we believe. And the only real wealth, for any of us, lies in our faith.” Gordon B. Hinckley I miss him....

EWA!

A week ago Carson was on the floor playing and I was working on my newest project. Anyways the phone rang and I went into the kitchen to talk. When I came back Carson was playing with a different toy. I have bad eyes so I couldn't really see what toy it was, and I shrugged it off. That was until it started squeaking. I didn't remember him having a toy like this, so I went to see what it was. I was horrified to find out that it was my dog's chew toy. Now I try to be a good pet parent and when my little dog was teething I bought her a special chew toy. This became the love of her life. Carson is teething as well now and must have found the same soothing effect. When I took it away from him he began to scream and he continued to scream for a good 20 minutes. I had to take him outside for a breather and to calm down. When he was done we went back in. I gave him his BABY toys and started working again. I heard another squeak. When I looked over my dog was trying to get her toy out of the grasp of Carson's hands. I took it away once more and the screaming began once more. This has been my battle for the past week. I told my mother this and she was disgusted and bought him four new baby toys. But, he wants the dog's chew toy. I finally took it away from my dog and my son and I put it up so no one could have it. My dog went crazy and would not stop whimpering for this dumb toy. What is the deal with this thing!? So I caved.............. Your thinking I let Carson just chew on this dog toy right?.... No! I went to pets mart tried to fine a similar version and it has become Carson's new teether. I know... its weird.... but at least he is happy. *Carson cut his first tooth on Friday 9/26/08*

Okay so I have to share how sorry I am to my new visiting teacher! You called at around 8pm and my caller id showed no number only Nevada. So I automatically assumed it was a telemarketer. We have been receiving them like crazy! Any who I decided to give this "telemarketer" a hard time. I answered in the deepest manliest voice I could conjure up. Went something like this..... ME- Deep manly voice- Hello VT- Is Heather available Me - Deep manly voice- This is she how may I help you. VT- pause um well... She started talking and I wasn't listening to anything until I got grounded back to earth when I heard Erin Deller's name in the mix. Me- Back to my regular voice- what? whats your name? visiting teaching oh yes of course! Needless to say my husband was rolling on the floor laughing. My heart was somewhere in my toes and my new VT seemed very confused. I am sure she hung up thinking I was some type of nut. I am so sorry! I will think twice before I go after another telemarketer or sweet Visiting teacher with my man voice.

It pains me to remember the events that took place 7 years ago on this day. The families that are forever suffering because of it. Lately I have been doing much study collecting my favorite talks. Today I woke up and was reading one from President James E Faust. These words stuck out to me. Here, then, is a great truth. In the pain, the agony, and the heroic endeavors of life, we pass through a refiner’s fire, and the insignificant and the unimportant in our lives can melt away like dross and make our faith bright, intact, and strong. In this way the divine image can be mirrored from the soul. It is part of the purging toll exacted of some to become acquainted with God. In the agonies of life, we seem to listen better to the faint, godly whisperings of the Divine Shepherd. In memory of them....

My mom and dad are pretty awesome. I am sure I have a biased opinion but these folks of mine are unbelievable. Every Monday I have been going to the parental's. Clint meets me over there after he gets off work. And we have been doing family home evening over there. This is so exciting to me! I get to share the joy the gospel gives to me with the people I love most. My parents are extremely open and have shown me nothing but great support. I am so very blessed for Carson to be diverse and see life from different angels. I thought that the change of me becoming a mother wouldn't be so different from life as it was then. I can't express how profound the change has been though. I see my husband, my parents, my sister and all my extended family in such a different light now. I never knew what unconditional love was until I met Carson. He has opened so many doors. I know that our Father in Heaven has a mission for him and it doesn't start when he turns 19. Its from the day he was placed in my arms. One of my favorite memories is waking up in the hospital to my mom rocking Carson. He was humming and she was whispering to him anything he wanted she would give. The seeds are being planted and I love watering them and watching them grow.